At the beginning of the year, I knew exactly what my plans were and had timelines for them. I was going to be done school in April, look and get a job in May and relocate fromVictoria to Vancouver.
Errrr...everything went as planned till April..life was good and I did finish school and then things stopped working out. I looked and looked for jobs, I applied to various companies and didn't get anyone to call me for an interview. Whats going on? I had the perfect resume and cover letter. Then I got 5 interviews and they all said no to me; "sorry we went with another candidate, while we thought you were a good candidate you don't have enough experience, it didn't work out well for us at this time..whoa I heard it all and i was very devastated.
I had helped my friend put her resume and cover letter together, coached her before her interviews on how to interview perfectly and she got a job after her second interview. While I was very happy for her, that made me feel even worse about myself, I felt not good enough and dumb.
My relocation plans didn't go as planned either. It was the most difficult process ever, finding a house was tough, the actual relocation was pretty hard, had to give out more than half of my things because the cost of carrying them through the ferry was crazy. What a life! I had such a meltdown. I thought God would compensate me for being sick and not getting a job and would make this one go easy at least..but I guess God doesn't do compensations, he makes you go through the process.
Rejection hurts and it hurts really bad.
But giving up is not an option for me. I got a part time job and I'm taking a little break from applying for jobs to recover from the heartbreak of being rejected.
Oh well i guess thats life, I don't even know how to cope anymore; maybe not make plans and just go with the flow but won't that mean I'm not being proactive? I'm really confused. I just want to be happy.
“You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and darn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.” ~Elizabeth Taylor