SMALL STEPS!

We all have things that we dream about but come up with excuses for not doing them or even trying.

I would not get that job anyways so why apply.

What if I started my business and don't get anyone to patronize me, i would die in debt.

What if no one reads my blog.

How will I fund myself through school and on and on it goes.

Sometimes the voice in your head, pulls you down, makes you believe you are not good enough, you will fail at things, don't even try just continue to do whats the norm, easy and be safe. Don't try new things and don't explore your dreams.

Don't listen to that voice, yes you can do whatever you want to do, all you need to do is take the first step. Apply for that job, research on the business you want to go into, enquire about funding your education, whatever it is, take a simple step. Don't let anything stop you. Have faith in your ability, take that first step and become who you want to be.

A small step won't turn into reality right away but couple of small steps will. One step leads to another step and another and finally gets you to where you want to be.

Every small step in the right direction becomes the start of something amazing.

XoXo
Wemmy.

Priceless Gifts!

Its my birthday week...whoop whoop! I love my birthday because I get gifts and lots of attention..haha!

I woke up this morning thinking of the best gifts I have given myself and those that were given to me, this brought a big smile to my face because some of the gifts I thought were big deals then are really nothing to me right now. I guess my perspective has changed and I look at life a little bit differently.

So I thought, what gifts would i be giving myself this year, I really want something priceless, collection of fabulous moments and experiences. While I have promised myself to live a life of adventure, I think there are some other things I would like to improve on in this new year.

Peace of Mind:
Count my blessings instead of dwelling on things that are not working well or things that I don't have yet. Live in the moment, appreciate the things that I have now, while I plan and work towards the things I want.
Stop comparing myself to others (comparison is the thief of joy). Social media has a way of making me feel like i'm not good enough or i'm not where i'm suppose to be. I'm thankful for where I am right now and I know it can only get better.

Time for ME:
I always put myself last on the to do list. Every other person comes first, I worry and care about them, in the process I neglect myself.  I will find ways and time to invest in myself, pamper and improve on being a better person. Explore me, my values and my limits.

Be Happy:
With diabetes, thalassemia and early menopause, I have my plates very full and these things gets me overwhelmed for sure. I have decided to be happy and stay happy. Its hard work but its the best gift I can give myself.

I'm going to be nice to myself in this new year and be a happy girl.

XoXo,
Wemmy.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Happy thanksgiving to all my amazing Canadian people! Just like christmas, I love thanksgiving because it gives us an opportunity to all gather together with our families and friends, eat a lot and be merry.

There is so much to be thankful for: my wonderful family and friends, the joy of sleeping and waking up every day. The strength and grace to fight the battles thrown at me.


I wish everyone a happy thanksgiving and I would be eating a lot..(insulin to the rescue). May we always have reasons to be thankful.

XoXo,
Wemmy.

MICROADVENTURES!

And I'm back! Its been a long while, guess I was having so much fun that I forgot my blog. Anyway, I'm back to blogging.

While I was away I stumbled on one of  Alastair Humphreys' write ups on mircoadventures and I was fascinated by it. I love to travel, visit new places, try new food, shops and just see how other people live. But money has been a limiting factor for me, its so expensive to travel around the world these days.

So when I read about micro adventure I thought that was exactly what I needed and it won't really cost me that much plus i just moved to a new city and I needed to explore the city anyway.

"Microadventure simply means getting out to somewhere close to home, overnight, couple of days, cheap, simple and most importably a lot of fun".

Over the summer, I decided to explore British Columbia (beautiful BC as it is called) going on these micro adventures and it was fun.

My first stop was Whistler (extremely amazing). If you love out door activities, you need to check this place out. I went on the gondola peak to peak ride, it was really fun. (being someone who is scared of heights, this was really going out of my comfort zone...but it was mad fun).

Parksville (Vancouver island): I went on long walks by the sea wall and it was great. My favourite thing to do is take long walks and I was able to do lots of that here.

Car race: Errr, didn't quite enjoy this adventure, I'm not a sports person, i'm glad i tried it though but won't be trying this again.

Harrison Hot springs: the mountains here are amazing! Pictures don't even do them any justice. Had a wonderful time in the warm pool and just looking at these mountains.

White Rock was fabulous and the long walk I had on the beach was equally as amazing as the town plus the nice ice cream.

 

I live for exploring new places, meeting passionate people and just having fun. I won't let anything beat me down or hold me from having fun! I enjoyed my micro adventure and i'm going to spend the rest of the year chasing adventures close to home.

XoXo
Wemmy.

REJECTION HURTS!

At the beginning of the year, I knew exactly what my plans were and had timelines for them. I was going to be done school in April, look and get a job in May and relocate fromVictoria to Vancouver. 

Errrr...everything went as planned till April..life was good and I did finish school and then things stopped working out. I looked and looked for jobs, I applied to various companies and didn't get anyone to call me for an interview. Whats going on? I had the perfect resume and cover letter. Then I got 5 interviews and they all said no to me; "sorry we went with another candidate, while we thought you were a good candidate you don't have enough experience, it didn't work out well for us at this time..whoa I heard it all and i was very devastated. 

I had helped my friend put her resume and cover letter together, coached her before her interviews on how to interview perfectly and she got a job after her second interview. While I was very happy for her, that made me feel even worse about myself, I felt not good enough and dumb. 

My relocation plans didn't go as planned either. It was the most difficult process ever, finding a house was tough, the actual relocation was pretty hard, had to give out more than half of my things because the cost of carrying them through the ferry was crazy. What a life! I had such a meltdown. I thought God would compensate me for being sick and not getting a job and would make this one go easy at least..but I guess God doesn't do compensations, he makes you go through the process. 

Rejection hurts and it hurts really bad. 

But giving up is not an option for me. I got a part time job and I'm taking a little break from applying for jobs to recover from the heartbreak of being rejected. 

Oh well i guess thats life, I don't even know how to cope anymore; maybe not make plans and just go with the flow but won't that mean I'm not being proactive? I'm really confused. I just want to be happy. 

“You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and darn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.” ~Elizabeth Taylor

UPDATES!

Wow, its been such a long time since I posted on my darling blog! 

I have been so busy. So I finished school in April and decided to move cities for better opportunities. 

The move was very very very hectic, but hey, have moved and I'm settling in, I call it my happy place. 

Also, I got a job! Although its part time as of now, I'm very happy I have somewhere to go and I'm getting paid. Looking for job sucks!!!

As for diabetes, it has not been under control so much, just because I am very stressed and unsettled. 

I just thought I should post this update and will write full details of what have been up too later. 

I missed blogging, its indeed very therapeutic for me. 

XoXo

Wemmy.

DIAVERSARY!

Wow...its been one full year since I got diagnosed with diabetes!

It has been a year filled with lots of tears, anger, heartaches, heartbreaks, disappointments. In a million years I never thought I would be sitting here jabbing myself with insulin, pricking my fingers and all other hassles that comes with diabetes or even have diabetes. But hey, here we are.

It has also been a year of doctors visits and lab tests, I really don't like going to the doctors, they always find something(in my opinion). I have had to make lots of trips to the doctors and God has blessed me with very kind doctors. I'm very grateful for that.

I decided to reflect on my life this past year and I have gone through a whole lot, i don't even know how I'm still standing or how I keep going, I have had lots of things thrown at me and truth be told, It has really affected me. Sometimes I wonder if i would ever go back to the very happy Wemmy I used to be. I don't know if this is how life is for everyone but it has been kinda crazy for me this past year.

But I'm not gonna give up, I'm gonna keep going on and doing my best. I have come to realize that diabetes is a journey, its really not going anywhere, I have to live with it and take care of it my whole life.

I couldn't have survived without the amazing people that have supported me, to every single one of you I say a big thank you from the bottom of heart.

One year down, forever to go!

XoXo,

Wemmy